So yea... this morning when i decided "hey lets write some more Echo" i DONT HAVE MY NOTEBOOK!!! neither of them, i have my rough draft and edits/finalizing notebook. Both are gone, and have no idea where they are, or hwo i would find/get them back.

I dont know how to salvage so much of what i have lost... I know the general story line, and i even know what happens in the chapters to some degree but unfortunately, now i have to start back at chapter 6...

I was on chapter 9 and half way done by the way.... in my small handwriting, it was still about... i think 60-80 pages? yea.... so about 1-3months of work just gone...

i am so depressed right now, i have no idea when i will be able to get more of the story done TT_TT

Yup thats right folks XD folks.... anywho...

I decided to put out chapter 5 of Echos early!! I was planning on finishing all of the chapter but no... The next scene is so important that it deserves its own chapter!! yeay for that section wooo!!! Have fun, and enjoy X3 i know i had fun writing it!

Okay so, recently i have been bored out of my mind at school. I spend most of every class period just writing and writing. I did not realize how far ahead i was from the story i have released so far but good god @_@ i am... I started typing up ch 4 and got about 3 pages in (3 pages of hand written that is) and said i will just continue to write, and catch up later.... Apparently i am on ch 6 in my notebook XD

So yea, i am all ready to type all the way through chapter 5. Lucky me ^_^;; 'Cuz when i get bored of writing, i honestly have nothing better to do in class, so i go back and edit my work. I make sure everything is perfect, and then when i am bored of editing i go back and write. What? am i gonna pay attention in my classes? HELL NO!! why would i do that?? I am way too bored for that, plus all my classes are easy, except one of them @_@; so if it isnt that class, i'm not paying attention. So i have about.... 35 more pages in my notebook that i need to type to be caught up >_< i will see if i can get some done today!!

So for all of 2 hours i felt like complete trash and i am finally feeling better!

It is all thanks to my Love-Ly savior, she has come through again, and i am so glad she was there for me, and i hope that i was there for her too.

There is a special something i have been trying desperately to find, something that she says is the reason she liked me to begin with, a special something that you cannot describe, its not a person a place or a thing, its not of any value yet it is worth everything to you. A special something that you cannot show to others, you have to find it in yourself, and that is when you can truly be free.

I feel as if i have found that, and i can finally go on into life being all that i can be. I am crying, not from sadness, but i have finally found that special something, and i can be strong for her, the way she is for me.

I am so very upset with art right now, no matter how hard i try, i feel like i screw up and i cant do anything right. I am so depressed i really dont know if i can continue... Life sucks and i hurt everywhere ;_; aghhh i hate that i am not getting any better